For the love of god, please do see the topic!
It’s amazing what effect a few little innocuous comments can have on a person, particularly on someone like myself (perhaps I’m slightly emotionally unstable, who knows.)
I went into work this evening, to have a couple of beers with the staff after work. Nothing really unusual about that. I was in a good mood when I got there, and everything was fine.
Then someone said something which implied I was unfair – and it put me on a downer for the rest of the night – to the point where I’ve been socially incommunicado for most of the evening. The pub was a deadset whitewash, nobody seemed to want to talk to me very much, and even after I left I got a couple of SMSes from our 2IC asking me what was wrong. Of course I put a brave face on it (even though I was in tears) because I can’t bear anyone to see me when I’m feeling vulnerable.
So of course, I’m taking the mature approach – stifling the (unusual thoughts of suicide) stupid crap that enters my brain, I’m getting insanely drunk. After the few beers at the pub I’ve managed to polish off a couple of four packs of JD and coke (it’s bloody annoying the amount of backspacing I’ve been doing whilst posting this) and I have a couple of pizzas and some more Jack Daniel’s on the way. I expect I won’t be sleeping tonight, I’ll be passing out.
So for the love of god, people – think about what you say! You never know what effect it’ll have on those of us who are more emotionally fragile than others. A seemingly innocuous comment can easily put someone on the brink of a nervous breakdown, if it’s said in the right context.
I don’t want to seem like I’m whining – so I’ll shut up. But tonight has highlighted to me how much I (perhaps stupidly) care about what other people think.
Screw them. They only make my life a misery – of course that’s not my fault. At all. Is it.
Heh.