Bleurgh.

WHY CAN’T THINGS JUST STAY GOOD FOR A CHANGE!

Work is giving me the shits at the moment, they have me trying to do three different jobs and I get no thanks or encouragement at all. Clare is spending way too much time with another guy who has been making advances towards her, yet I’m supposed to just put up with it – and all of a sudden she is talking about how we’re going to break up eventually and it feels like she’s given up on us.

I’m also running out of money… although it breaks my heart I just can’t afford to keep the ute any more so it’s on the market.

A lot of good things have happened in the last few months of course.. it’s just that when bad things happen you can’t see anything but what’s in front of you. And doing that is just bringing back a lot of the old self-destructive thoughts again. It’s awful but I feel like I can’t keep fighting them forever, and the things I want in my life just seem to be forever out of reach. So what’s the point. *shrug*