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Too much dieting.

Massive binge tonight.

FML.

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Self identity is fluid. Always trying to be better is a constant. Mostly I post videos of me lifting weights... otherwise it's just life.
I don't often film lifting any more. And I don't h I don't often film lifting any more. And I don't have all that much to share outside of lifting. But the last 6 or so months has been a bit interesting in a few ways. I actually stopped training altogether for a few months, and then had a long overseas holiday, and since we got back in late January I've struggled to get into a routine again. But after a few false starts I've managed to string together 4 consistent weeks and feel like I'm back in a groove. Still not back to peak strength but that doesn't matter. What matters is just getting quality work done and not adding to my laundry list of injuries. So, here's a 205kg deadlift double from this morning and an easy 137kg squat single from a couple of weeks ago. I doubled it this week. And since I realised that this month is my 9 year liftversary, I dug out one from the archives of me struggling to squat 60kg back in 2016. Small changes over time add up to big things. Never stop trying. #lifting
I was in Geelong. I just collected a car. I had a I was in Geelong. I just collected a car. I had a day to kill. Why not go for a drive?
1 year, 1 month and 15 days since I tore my should 1 year, 1 month and 15 days since I tore my shoulder up. I'm not sure if it will ever feel completely normal again. But at least it's strong enough to do this. Singles this morning at 110kg, 125kg and 120kg. Maybe one day I'll get back where I was.
Terrible #latteart - but it's improving. Terrible #latteart - but it's improving.
New camera, who dis Still struggling with hip stu New camera, who dis Still struggling with hip stuff but I've been doing these high box squats for a while and they've allowed me to keep working away at my squat anyway. Here's a single at 137kg from earlier today and then the fourth back off set.... 112kg times ten. Blah. Did a bunch of other stuff too, then washed the car. Tired now.
I do still train. Top single at 105kg this morning I do still train. Top single at 105kg this morning. This is the heaviest I've benched in a long time, since I tore my shoulder in (I think) August last year. I've lost some strength but eh. It'll come back. This didn't hurt.
I haven't posted training videos for a bit. Had a I haven't posted training videos for a bit. Had a boring deload and started light again. Now I've hurt my shoulder. This stuff just keeps throwing roadblocks in my way. --- Anyway I still did the work sets I planned today. Here's a bunch of benching where I'm clearly trying to protect the sore shoulder. I did some lat pulldowns, leg extensions, triceps extensions and curls after that. Hope it is a great weekend for everyone! #lifting #training #exodusstrength
Woke up this morning to this. Felt unworthy. Fee Woke up this morning to this. Felt unworthy. Feel like I'm old, tired and irritable most of the time. But I have a ton of things to be thankful for. Whether I deserve them or not. #keepfighting
It was about -3° when I woke up this morning and I It was about -3° when I woke up this morning and I don't think it's any warmer now (5 hours later). ---- 2 Count Pause Bench. 4x5x107.5kg - that last set got kinda hard. After that JM Presses, cable rows and bodyweight dips. Didn't post any of those because who cares? --- Need a deload. And a blanket. #exodusstrength #lifting #training #benchpress
Deadlift day. New power bar from @loadedlifting tu Deadlift day. New power bar from @loadedlifting turned up on Friday, first time pulling with it. Definitely a lot quieter and nicer to pull with than my old bar - hopefully disturbed the neighbours a little less at 5am this morning. Hope my hands get used to the knurling quickly! ---- Couple of singles with 210kg - it was only supposed to be one, but I wasn't happy with how I locked out the first, didn't set my hook grip well. Four sets of six with 180kg. Did some pause SSB squats and reverse nordic curls and lateral raises after that but it's all boring so I won't post here. ---- Very tired and need a deload next week. #exodusstrength #lifting #training #deadlift
Some snippets from the weekend training sessions. Some snippets from the weekend training sessions. Yesterday: really light tempo squats because I'm slightly injured again (yay!), plus leg extensions, incline bench, rear delt flys and seated dumbbell press. Today: Comp bench for a 125kg single then a few triples, a few sets of Larsen bench, lat pulldowns, leg extensions, curls and triceps pushdowns. Needed a whole lot of couch time after that. #lifting #training #exodusstrength
This morning's session. Pulled 200kg, moved a bit This morning's session. Pulled 200kg, moved a bit slow but I haven't pulled anything heavy for weeks. 8x175kg, 8x175kg, 4x175kg (tired), 6x175kg. Pause SSB Squat - 3x6x107kg, bit lighter than planned, I'm nursing a thing. Lying leg extensions and lateral raises to finish. We do what we can do. And I need coffee now. #lifting #training #exodusstrength
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swoleaspirations

Self identity is fluid. Always trying to be better is a constant. Mostly I post videos of me lifting weights... otherwise it's just life.
I don't often film lifting any more. And I don't h I don't often film lifting any more. And I don't have all that much to share outside of lifting. But the last 6 or so months has been a bit interesting in a few ways. I actually stopped training altogether for a few months, and then had a long overseas holiday, and since we got back in late January I've struggled to get into a routine again. But after a few false starts I've managed to string together 4 consistent weeks and feel like I'm back in a groove. Still not back to peak strength but that doesn't matter. What matters is just getting quality work done and not adding to my laundry list of injuries. So, here's a 205kg deadlift double from this morning and an easy 137kg squat single from a couple of weeks ago. I doubled it this week. And since I realised that this month is my 9 year liftversary, I dug out one from the archives of me struggling to squat 60kg back in 2016. Small changes over time add up to big things. Never stop trying. #lifting
I was in Geelong. I just collected a car. I had a I was in Geelong. I just collected a car. I had a day to kill. Why not go for a drive?
1 year, 1 month and 15 days since I tore my should 1 year, 1 month and 15 days since I tore my shoulder up. I'm not sure if it will ever feel completely normal again. But at least it's strong enough to do this. Singles this morning at 110kg, 125kg and 120kg. Maybe one day I'll get back where I was.
Terrible #latteart - but it's improving. Terrible #latteart - but it's improving.
New camera, who dis Still struggling with hip stu New camera, who dis Still struggling with hip stuff but I've been doing these high box squats for a while and they've allowed me to keep working away at my squat anyway. Here's a single at 137kg from earlier today and then the fourth back off set.... 112kg times ten. Blah. Did a bunch of other stuff too, then washed the car. Tired now.
I do still train. Top single at 105kg this morning I do still train. Top single at 105kg this morning. This is the heaviest I've benched in a long time, since I tore my shoulder in (I think) August last year. I've lost some strength but eh. It'll come back. This didn't hurt.
I haven't posted training videos for a bit. Had a I haven't posted training videos for a bit. Had a boring deload and started light again. Now I've hurt my shoulder. This stuff just keeps throwing roadblocks in my way. --- Anyway I still did the work sets I planned today. Here's a bunch of benching where I'm clearly trying to protect the sore shoulder. I did some lat pulldowns, leg extensions, triceps extensions and curls after that. Hope it is a great weekend for everyone! #lifting #training #exodusstrength
Woke up this morning to this. Felt unworthy. Fee Woke up this morning to this. Felt unworthy. Feel like I'm old, tired and irritable most of the time. But I have a ton of things to be thankful for. Whether I deserve them or not. #keepfighting
It was about -3° when I woke up this morning and I It was about -3° when I woke up this morning and I don't think it's any warmer now (5 hours later). ---- 2 Count Pause Bench. 4x5x107.5kg - that last set got kinda hard. After that JM Presses, cable rows and bodyweight dips. Didn't post any of those because who cares? --- Need a deload. And a blanket. #exodusstrength #lifting #training #benchpress
Deadlift day. New power bar from @loadedlifting tu Deadlift day. New power bar from @loadedlifting turned up on Friday, first time pulling with it. Definitely a lot quieter and nicer to pull with than my old bar - hopefully disturbed the neighbours a little less at 5am this morning. Hope my hands get used to the knurling quickly! ---- Couple of singles with 210kg - it was only supposed to be one, but I wasn't happy with how I locked out the first, didn't set my hook grip well. Four sets of six with 180kg. Did some pause SSB squats and reverse nordic curls and lateral raises after that but it's all boring so I won't post here. ---- Very tired and need a deload next week. #exodusstrength #lifting #training #deadlift
Some snippets from the weekend training sessions. Some snippets from the weekend training sessions. Yesterday: really light tempo squats because I'm slightly injured again (yay!), plus leg extensions, incline bench, rear delt flys and seated dumbbell press. Today: Comp bench for a 125kg single then a few triples, a few sets of Larsen bench, lat pulldowns, leg extensions, curls and triceps pushdowns. Needed a whole lot of couch time after that. #lifting #training #exodusstrength
This morning's session. Pulled 200kg, moved a bit This morning's session. Pulled 200kg, moved a bit slow but I haven't pulled anything heavy for weeks. 8x175kg, 8x175kg, 4x175kg (tired), 6x175kg. Pause SSB Squat - 3x6x107kg, bit lighter than planned, I'm nursing a thing. Lying leg extensions and lateral raises to finish. We do what we can do. And I need coffee now. #lifting #training #exodusstrength
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